I'm not normally one for confrontation. Normally I bite my tongue, keep my feelings hidden and just let everything go over my head and deal with it in my own way. Not this week. This week a few people have seen a different side to me. I've said things that have needed saying for a while and I feel better than I have done for a while. In fact, it feels amazing.
I'm a decent person, I have a good set of morals and know right from wrong. I go out of my way to help my nearest and dearest and like to think I do go that extra mile for them, as they do for me. My family are my world and I know the people that I can turn to and who will be there for me, unconditionally.
What I am sick of is people contacting me out of the blue and pretending to be my best friend, Take the phone call I had today. This person has caused immeasurable hurt and upset to my family. I haven't spoken to said person in five years and yet they call me up to discuss arrangements for a family party, they then get upset when I say I'm not going.
I was told that I was very rude. Well, OK call me what you like. I wasn't rude I was honest. As we all know the truth hurts and all I said was I am not sitting for four hours playing happy families. I can't be fake and sit there being all smiles and making polite conversation through gritted teeth.
What you see is what you get with me. I don't put on airs and graces. I don't pretend to be some I'm not. I'm just me. Take it or leave it. I am far from perfect and I know all my bad points but what I'm beginning to see is that I have a lot of good points and do you know what? I like who I am. I don't want to be someone else.
So for anyone reading this beware. I am no longer going to be that door mat and take all the shite. There's a few people on my hit list that are going to be told exactly what I think of them. Please or offend. This is the new assertive Jayne.